Hi,
Howdy? I have realized that I dont love myself.I have an ego , but I dont have love for myself. Maybe I do have love for myself , but I tend to be very critical of myself.I think this is all part of the disease(depression). Yesterday , there was a recurrence. I felt someone else was controlling my feelings and emotions.This happened at around 4.00 pm . I think I know what it is. The effect of my morning sadhana(spiritual practise) wore off.So this is what I think.I think when u do your sadhana you get elevated and there is a circle of protection put on you . But it does have a time limit. It wears off after a while.I think this is what happened to me too. Plus I think if you have a rudraskha that increases the protection multifold.I had removed my rudraksha because the thread broke. Anyways , I got the thread and now im wearing the rudraksha. This helps me.I am OK , now. Even though there was a recurrence , I believe I am better now.It is all Amma's grace.
Howdy? I have realized that I dont love myself.I have an ego , but I dont have love for myself. Maybe I do have love for myself , but I tend to be very critical of myself.I think this is all part of the disease(depression). Yesterday , there was a recurrence. I felt someone else was controlling my feelings and emotions.This happened at around 4.00 pm . I think I know what it is. The effect of my morning sadhana(spiritual practise) wore off.So this is what I think.I think when u do your sadhana you get elevated and there is a circle of protection put on you . But it does have a time limit. It wears off after a while.I think this is what happened to me too. Plus I think if you have a rudraskha that increases the protection multifold.I had removed my rudraksha because the thread broke. Anyways , I got the thread and now im wearing the rudraksha. This helps me.I am OK , now. Even though there was a recurrence , I believe I am better now.It is all Amma's grace.
