Whats in a name?

This is my entry to this blog again.I cannot believe that I am going to be 40 years old this year. Thats like more than half my life,I'm going to live.I think I am beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. The problem is not the light. The problem is the tunnel. So when you see the light , your worries seem less troublesome. Im not talking about death , Im talking about finding a solution to your daily problems. Im not making up any stuff , I read all this somewhere,and thought it would be cool to add it to my blog.I am just thinking , am I so accustomed to portraying a character , that I forget my true self. I dont know what my true self is.But I think that,good things are happening to me. Amma is coming back on the 26th,so thats good.I think there is more to it than meets the eye.Thats all i can say for now. Slowly things will happen.I hope it happens,because Amma is willing it to happen.

Am I getting anywhere spiritually?

First and foremost, Happy New Year. That is the mood of the moment.I dont know if this is the same everywhere but I kept greeting everyone with a Happy New Year.I was also greeted with a Happy New Year. I would like to start off the year , helping and caring for whomever i can . I am interested in helping the needy , so I will donate enough to buy the orphanage kids a nice meal of fried rice. They like vegetable fried rice and they would love to have it. We have already done this before . The first time we did it , we bought some nice puffs and sweet bread for the kids.A nice tea-time snack.We went there by ourselves and took part in distributing the food. The next time we ordered fried rice for the kids.They loved it.This will be the 3rd time , we are doing this. This was a fantastic idea from my mother. She was the one who came up with this idea.Amma is very close to these kids. There is a br. who is in charge of these kids. I dont know what his name is , but that could be found out.Thats not important.But I like the idea of donating enough for a meal for these kids. I could also do something like buying some food for the animals.Amma says we have to have love and compassion for all. btw, amma asked something from all of us.I am going to copy and paste that from my email. This is it.
 Amma asks us to do five things this new year.1. Help others when you get the opportunity and be compassionate to all. 2. Try not to speak bad of others, it destroys you and others. 3. Do japa and meditation without breaks everyday. 4. Spend time in good company in satsang and read spiritual books regularly. 5. Vow to be humble and pray to be that way always.
I am going to do just this from now.
With Amma's blessings,
Sandy.