Ammas Guru Purnima Day .

Hi,
  This is me , back with a bang , feeling great after Guru Purnima, 2015.I felt like Amma was talking to me ! There were so many people in the hall , but Amma was really talking to me. I know Amma was talking to me.I feel that Amma and me have a very strong connection.Initially I knew that Amma knew me from a previous birth.But I didnt know that I  was a spiritual being.I knew that Amma loved all her children equally , but I didnt know that I was special, and she would take special interest in me.I think that when I went to the USA, I became very conditioned. I was always having worldly desires and never knew that I was a spiritual being. I have just come to know about this now . I had my horoscope read by many astrologers , but noone ever told me to take up the spiritual path.It was my friend malathy(malathy sanborn) from the ashram , who pointed it out that having 4 planets in the 12th house is good for spirituality.This made me realize along with the other experiences that I am cut out to be a spiritual aspirant.
  Being spiritual,doesnt mean that you can let go of worldly desires.U have to do your duty and work in this world as a responsible adult and as well do your duties.These duties that you have to do would be to take care of your parents, take care of your family etc. etc. Since , Im living with my mother , one among my many duties would be to take care of her. Besides this, there are many other duties we have to perform.As I am just now regaining my health after becoming depressed, these duties had not dawned upon me. Only now Am I gaining the awareness to perform these duties. One of my main responsibilities would be to listen to Amma, whatever be the situation.The next duty would be to be with Amma , come what may. Once you realize that she is God, there is no going back.Its just to be with her, for the rest of your life.You have come to the ultimate reality . Suppose your riding a bus of life, which is full of people, different colorful stops, different views and all that. When u reach Amma, this is where u get off , since your life has reached its destination. Amma is Kali Avatar. This means she was existing even before the world was manifested. Therefore ,when u see Amma, you are literally seeing your pathway to the heavens.Im talking about Moksha.Yes the very purpose of life will be granted to you by her. Thats why I am getting off.

What came first...The chicken or the egg?

Hi once again,
                    I am thinking of writing something that makes sense.But the way I see it , there is some stuff you can put into words , and then there is some stuff you experience. You cannot imagine experiencing enlightenment because the only way to put it into words is to say you attain inner bliss.But the essence which you experience cannot be put into words. That is spirituality for you . Whereas science can be described, spirituality cannot be described. This is because it is truly experience based.That is why the classic works of spirituality , like Autobiography of a Yogi, (by Parahamsa yogananda), the Himalayan Masters (By swami Rama) is such great work . Describing experience in words.This is such great work. Even Amma's works are great. The 'Awaken Children' series of books is great . It is written with such simple definitions that you think it is so easy.But the truth of the matter is , is that it has very deep meaning. Amma explains everything with such ease that you almost take it to be a walk in the park. There is a lot of skepticism in the beginning , but once you have overcome the doubt and fear asssociated with spirituality , your world will change. Mine hasnt changed yet, but I am sure it will change. Amma guarantees this . I have to put in my effort and Amma will also put her effort . I have run out of ideas to put in this blog.I reach a road block after I come out with a spurt of ideas. This is like my weakness.