I havent written for a while now , so I thought its time to add another one.I have started dieting now.Today I had some extra kesari bhath ,but thats not going to matter in the long run.I have to be active.Physically and mentally active. This is what is needed for me to recover from my depression.I have been diagnosed with clinical depression with psychotic features.So now , I have to recover.My psychologist says that its good to think of it as a chemical imbalance.Thats what Im doing now.Im thinking that its a chemical imbalance.I find it difficult to write . I dont know what I should jot down.Words dont come to me.I feel theres a block in anything I do. There is no structured thought process.Currently Im in a mess. I dont know what to do with my life.But I know one thing for sure.Amma has saved me with her compassionate act.The act of allowing me to stay in her ashram.Ive made some new friends and I've become spiritual.Now the real question rises,What do I do with myself? First, I have to recover.Lose a ton of weight,and then take it from there.First climb the baby steps.Then take leaps and bounds.But be persistent with the journey.The journey should be exciting.Amusing.Amazing.Im not getting to enjoy the journey , but I have to start somewhere.Start enjoying the experience. The journey shouldnt be about reaching a destination , but its about experiencing whats there at that moment.
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